A Mother's Day Reflection

Today is my 6th Mother's Day. Still, when I think of the day, I don't think of myself, but of my own mom, as it should be (I love you, Mom). It is still weird sometimes when I look at my kids, to think that I am their mom. Wow! I must say, I had no idea what I was getting into!! I always knew that being a mom was in my future, but beyond that I was pretty much clueless to all that comes along with it. I often think of parenting as a secret club. Everyone tells you the good stuff and beautiful stuff, but nothing else. And even if they did share with you all that comes with it, you just.can't.grasp.it. You can't know the feeling of having another so completely dependent on you, or that once you have a child you won't ever sleep the same again, or feel the same again, or be the same, again. And your heart will actually ache because of the love you feel for them. It is a blessing for which I am thankful for. I thank God for the two beautiful souls He has given me (and Ross:)) to care for in this world. I certainly am humbled by the opportunity, and I can only hope that my desire to do my best, will be enough. Especially on the days that I just don't make the cut for being the supermom. Because most days I don't! And yet, they still give me the same hugs and kisses as the days that I do.
And as I write this, my sweet Zoey is sick, and she has been asking me to hold her and take care of her and make her better... yes, my sweet girl, yes I will do that for as long as I can, and thank you, thank you for asking. It is a little ironic, in a way. We had some plans that we had to cancel, but that isn't a big deal. Because she isn't feeling well, I get to really just take care of her and snuggle with her and just be the mom, and except for the fact that I want her to feel better, it is a nice change for us to slow down and just be.

Another thing that becoming a mother has allowed me to appreciate is my own mom. Although times were different, situations were different, life was different... Mom, you are an inspiration! You are strength and love and goodness and all that I hope to be. Thank you. And to all of you moms out there, my dear friends and family, may God Bless you today and every day. Thank you for saying yes to life. You are in my prayers. You are special and you are doing a great job! Happy Mother's Day.
With much love,
Jill

This is one of my favorite pictures of me and my mom when Zoey was just a week old.